Tuesday, June 30, 2009 . 9:05 AM

hahaha..! finally i got time to update my blog. recently too busy to update, with school work shopping and meeting up with friends.. haha. lately lots of things happened make me lost my concertration. hahaha. tiring can.. hahaha. rp alway increasing the number of people getting h1n1. actually going movie tml with huiling.. who knows. she also gotta quarantine. so cannot go out. so out of sudden i lost a movie partner.. haha. want to ask ting to go movie. who know she going oversea.. when she finish quarantine. movie no more already. sad. hahaha.! 1month later will be my big day! hahahaha.! i should be starting my wish list soon.. now maybe i can post up few things already..haha.!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009 . 8:45 AM

haha. surprisingly i re-watched ps i love you again. nice show. make me cry like hell. so touching.. i also want to find such a lovely husband in future. if possible. hahaha. and there is so many memorable quotes in the movie.. haha.

this is gerry last letter to holly :
Dear Holly, I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you

patricia to holly:
You know the worst thing for a parent... second after losing a child? Watching your child head for the same life you had. You can't stop it. It's a terrible, helpless feeling. Makes you angry all the time. And I've been angry. For a very long time. I'm exhausted.

gerry to holly:
I know what I want, because I have it in my hands right now. You.

Patricia to holly:
I bet you've had a hard time walking into a room full of people on your own, right? Yeah. I know that. I know what it is not to feel like your in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let everyone know... you're with him. You're his.

Monday, June 15, 2009 . 7:41 AM

Sing and I will hear you
No matter where you are
A song to light the darkest night
And guide me from afar

And I will never be alone
Now I know you’re somewhere
You’re everywhere to me
You’re the colour in the sky
A reason to believe
And when the rain falls down
You tell a story
And I will hear you
Always near you
By the boab tree

Lay your arms around me
Like the falling rain
Let the feeling drown me
And life begins again

And I will never be afraid
Now I know you’re somewhere
You’re everywhere to me
The warming of the sun upon
The earth beneath my feet
And when the rain falls down
You tell a story
And I will hear you
Always near you
By the boab tree

Oh you are somewhere
You’re everywhere to me
You’re the colour in the sky
And you’re the earth beneath my feet
And when the rain falls down
You tell a story
And I will hear you
Always near you
By the boab tree

this is my favourite song now. hahaha. school reopen already... i feel so tired.. not full of energy... update again..

Sunday, June 7, 2009 . 8:21 AM

haha.! craving craving.. for cakes.. how about going for a buffet lunch. or even for dessert. i missing all this sweet sweet stuff.. hahaha... or even ice-cream buffet. i'm planning.. one day.. haha. with huiling, haopeng, joey and of course huihui.. to go.. but don't know why the one day will come. hahaha.. going to update again..

Friday, June 5, 2009 . 10:27 AM

life have me have been so suck lately. i seriously can't wait to get out of this.. is killing me.. somehow no one understand all this kind of shit. i felt so insecure with a lot of things, getting more sensitive and paranoid too.. is a shitty month i ever had. make me feel like wanna cry, do a lot of things to make me forgot all this kind of thing.. pressure is coming down free flow.. and i hate it.. because all this.. memories starting to flow back also like free of charge. how. i'm tired. i wanna hide in a dark corner where no one can find me. i know is idiot to do that. but i'm freaking out with all this matter, which is not in my control. so what can i do.. yes. everyone ask me to stop thinking, relax.. go out and shopping. release stress.. but after all i realise no matter what i done i'm still on the same step not moving on.. i think only huihui understand.. haha. i just feel so joke and ridiculous about my stupid attitude.. i'm tired.. i want a shoulder. i need one...
to my dearest best friend:
life have been great with you in my life.. no matter when i'm happy, sad or even at the peak of exploding soon.. you will always be there for me no matter what happened.. i thought i can live life as normal without you.. hahaha. but i was wrong.. after this 2 year without you. i realize i still want you as a best friend back in my life. i want to have a shoulder to lean on, cry on and ever to share the happiness i have.. because of some idiot stuff we quarrel and then we end in a unpleasant way. make me regret what i have done... recently a lot of things start coming down to me.. without giving me any notice. i got no one to turn too.. and suddenly i thought of you.. the one who also tell to make me happy, cool me down fellow. where are you..? do we really have to end this like that.. in a unsure, unclear mind.. i regret to let go? or should i say i'm not happy the way we both solve things. tell me..what should i do now. i feel so paranoid about a lot things which is jamming up for me.. is it too much for me to handle.. everytime when such things happened i thought of you..because i think only u understand what is all this shit.. even when i actually throwing temper to you.. you also don't mind that.. at least you are the only one who can actually accept me in this naive way.. i feel so tired without you... no one to really understand me in a way like what u done. omg.. how. i felt so hopeless now. can i actually have you back in my life.?? or maybe i should just leave it as it is..? tell me.. give me answer will you.. i'm tired...