life have me have been so suck lately. i seriously can't wait to get out of this.. is killing me.. somehow no one understand all this kind of shit. i felt so insecure with a lot of things, getting more sensitive and paranoid too.. is a shitty month i ever had. make me feel like wanna cry, do a lot of things to make me forgot all this kind of thing.. pressure is coming down free flow.. and i hate it.. because all this.. memories starting to flow back also like free of charge. how. i'm tired. i wanna hide in a dark corner where no one can find me. i know is idiot to do that. but i'm freaking out with all this matter, which is not in my control. so what can i do.. yes. everyone ask me to stop thinking, relax.. go out and shopping. release stress.. but after all i realise no matter what i done i'm still on the same step not moving on.. i think only huihui understand.. haha. i just feel so joke and ridiculous about my stupid attitude.. i'm tired.. i want a shoulder. i need one...