Friday, June 5, 2009 . 10:10 AM
to my dearest best friend:life have been great with you in my life.. no matter when i'm happy, sad or even at the peak of exploding soon.. you will always be there for me no matter what happened.. i thought i can live life as normal without you.. hahaha. but i was wrong.. after this 2 year without you. i realize i still want you as a best friend back in my life. i want to have a shoulder to lean on, cry on and ever to share the happiness i have.. because of some idiot stuff we quarrel and then we end in a unpleasant way. make me regret what i have done... recently a lot of things start coming down to me.. without giving me any notice. i got no one to turn too.. and suddenly i thought of you.. the one who also tell to make me happy, cool me down fellow. where are you..? do we really have to end this like that.. in a unsure, unclear mind.. i regret to let go? or should i say i'm not happy the way we both solve things. tell me..what should i do now. i feel so paranoid about a lot things which is jamming up for me.. is it too much for me to handle.. everytime when such things happened i thought of you..because i think only u understand what is all this shit.. even when i actually throwing temper to you.. you also don't mind that.. at least you are the only one who can actually accept me in this naive way.. i feel so tired without you... no one to really understand me in a way like what u done. omg.. how. i felt so hopeless now. can i actually have you back in my life.?? or maybe i should just leave it as it is..? tell me.. give me answer will you.. i'm tired...
